JT -

I love you. i miss you.

So I woke up today with a weird as fuck dream. In it, you called me and told me about everything you did in your cruise (but in my dream, i kept telling myself you couldnt cuz you dunt have your phone, but w/e). And I was so jelly I wanted to go on my own cruise, so I got a bunch of friends (they were all pirates from one piece) and we got a boat and sailed. LOL ! Weird, huh. But the only thing I rmbr doing on my fake cruise was go bungee jumping down sails with chains instead of a bungee cord.

Haha. That just goes to show how much i missed you.

I didnt do anything to day. I didnt even leave my house. I watched mad bleach (im on like episode 60) and i tried to do some physics, but its 945 and i havent even opened my physics textbook… *le sigh* I hope I do okay this thursday.

I just realised that when you come back, I’d be finished my exam and really free for the summer~ yayaaa~

But it feels really weird that you;re not here to procrasinate me while I study… D=

man, its only been day #2 but I miss you so much already. ! 

Come back soontimes.

xoxo

JT -

I love you.

Today is the first day in forever that you havent said anything to me. Last time that had happened, I worried sick about you, thinking you got into an accident. Remember that time? Huge snow storm and you didnt call me and I thought something happened to you, so I spamm called you like 50 times. 

Omg, I’m flipping out, so upset! I miss you so badly. What am I going to do without you? I miss you so hard. D= I should be studying for my final on thurs, but I cant be fucked. I think Ima do it tmr! 

Okay, so today, I went to Toronto cuz my sister had eye exam ( I think I kinda need new glasses too, but I dont want :3 ). So I picked up my contacts at pmall. We (me and fam) always know that my visa wasnt picked up by bills mom, cuz their family just got a new house and theyre renovating it. So they were too busy. So I was like, why not just pick it up ourselves, right?

WRONG! Bills fucking mom was unable to be reached cuz she was out… okay i expected that, but Bill was out having lunch with like, Janice and Nick, two of our buddies. I called him and he was like, wanna join us? Im like… Wait, cant you just go home and give this visa to me ? I dont think he understand how important this shit is to me… I mean, I MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO GO TO CHINA…Rich people are such snobs. D=

So I failed that today, and then i came home and watched a shit load of bleach. I also need a new online episode website… shit is so unrealiable… D: I spent like hours trying to find a good place to watch Pretty Little Liars… D=

Anyways, I also left you a vm, but your new phone records such short vms… I know i cant leave you a dirty one in under 2 minutes. =3

But anyways, I hope you had loads of fun, put on loads of sunscreen and didn’t vent your pent up sexual frustration on your buddy Omar!

I love you and miss you more than you would know!

xoxo 

JT -

I love you.

Ohai there, sexpot. I missed you alot since my internet has been cut. D= I couldnt wait another day to talk to you so i thought I should post on my blog. =] 

I missed you to pieces and cant wait til you get your gift. =] I wish you didnt know what it is, but you do. D= What a boobie.

So I know you’re still mad at me, and you dunt want to be all cuddly with me, cause you still think things are going to change when I leave for 3 months, but its not! I promise you, cross my heart and hope to die, that me and you will never break apart and die! D=

I love you way too much to let you go. and i would never ever let you go, you know me well enough to know that I would never give you up, give us up. I want us til the end. 

Us til the end. 

I like that =] It sounds good. Like my first name next to your last name. Or Dr. Tran. Teehee. 

I’d like to be doctor tran. :] And have you introduce me to people as your wife. :]

I can’t wait to be with you. I promise you that even if I cant talk to you everyday, I’ll update my blog … (with that 12 hr difference) and load it up with pictures of budda and mountains and chinese relatives that you’ll have to rmbr the names of so when we go visit them in china together, you can rmbrr them. =]

And plus its a good impression you give them if you rmbr and then they wont hate you as much for being vietnamese… =3 

teehee. I kid. 

I love you.

I miss you like mad. 

Call you later tonight… 

xoxo

JT -

I love you. 

I miss you.

Im so stressed right now, I just wanna drop down and DIE. Im fucking serious. I cant seem to do anything right. And everything I do… JUST SCREWS UP.

AHH. I DUNT KNOW ANYTHING BEAR. IM SO FUCKED. RIGHT NOW. JUST FUCKED. STRAIGHT UP. I THOUGHT I KNOW SHIT, BUT WHEN I GO DOWN AND ACTUALLY DO IT, IM NOT GETTING ANYWHERE NEAR AS GOOD AS I USED TO. FUUUCK MY FUCKING LIFE.

Baby, Im not cut out for medschool. I cant even make a decent 80 in first year chem. how the hell am i supposed to compete with smartass keeners and their high as fuck GPA? I thought fucking hell i was smart, but fuck no, Im no where NEAR THEM FUCKERS. 

Ugh. I just want this to be OVER. O.V.E.R. 

I know I should be studying instead of going on TUMBLR but i need a fucking break from my fucking acid base kinetics organics SHIT. I fucking HATE those things. HATE HATE HATEEE. DPFIJWEFIPDFJIPEDFKJEIPWFJEUIPDFJKFIEJDK

/endrant. I love you. You’re my everything.

Why does life have to so damn hard. 

JT -

I love you.

You’re my everything. 

And I wanna say it to you so badly. To hear you say it back. I wanna be there for your day. I wanna make it special for you. I wanna walk by your side, and have you look at me, and say wow. I wanna kiss you. I wanna be with you.

I wanted to see you so badly. I wanted to make it work. Im sorry I didnt think of this sooner, but I didn’t know. I gave up on being with you, thats why I told you not to buy the ticket. I gave up.

But then this happened. It fired me up again, gave me hope. And at the time of my stress, I needed the hope. I guess I was a little disappointed with it. I wanted it to be a “wow! really!” moment, but the way you reacted made me feel like I shoulda thought of this sooner. 

Why do I have to always be the one working for it? Can’t you care a little bit too? Tell me I have something to look forward to, and it’ll help me through this painful time. Tell me I can look forward to seeing you. Tell me I can look forward to being with you, makeup and hair all shimmery.

Tell me I can look forward to prom a second time. But this time better than last. Because I’ll be with you.

JT - 

I love you.

I just wanted to tell you that I wont be home tonight. Im studying with friends at the health sciences library and we;ll be doing loads of chemistry pactice questions.

then I have to get home and do my chemistry pre lab cuz i have a lab at 830 am tmr that i have to get up for.

then I have finish my 3000 word essay of breast cancer and the technology for detecting it and stuff…

I love you. Im so sorry. Ill you tmr and we can watch how i met your mother <3 

Im sorry im so busy… D: I love you. 

You’re always my everything.<3

JT -

I dunt know how long I can deal with having such an inconsiderate little bitch in the same room as me.

Today, she set her alarm for 7. And she didnt turn it off. I asked her politely to turn it off, and she said, get this, ” You were being inconsiderate last night by having your reading light on. So too bad. “

Im like, ARE YOU SERIOUS. I HAVE MY LIGHT ON. NOT MY RADIO. ITS NOT THE SAME FUCKING THING.

Shit.

I wanan slap that bitch so fucking hard.

Ughhhh.

I hope your days better. I got like 4 hrs of sleep. I thinmk im gonna go back to sleep. -_-